Sunday, 10 June 2012

R.I.P Grandpa

I wasn't too sure if I'd write this post because it's supposed to be a happy blog but I just felt the need to let it out somewhere...

Yesterday at 6pm my grandfather suffered a severe stroke just as he pulled up in front of our house. We were told that he was critical and wouldn't make it. At 10:05am this morning he was gone. Just like that.
How can someone you've been close to your whole entire life just not be there one day? It was unexpected and just very cruel. How do you go from attending a family birthday party to saying goodbye forever, from sending thank-you cards for an Anniversary party to calling people informing them of a friends/relatives death?

We lost our grandfather, my mum lost her father, and worst of all my grandma lost her soulmate. That one person who is always there at the end of the day isn't any longer. My heart absolutely kills for my grandmother, can you imagine spending 24/7 for over 50 years with someone and one day, without warning, they are just gone?

He was an absolutely amazing person who lived a great life. He, along with my grandma, always made the best out of what they had without any complaints. He always kept busy with his hobbies - woodwork, chess, Spanish soaps, reading and crosswords. He was overall a very intelligent, funny, family oriented man who would go out of his way to do anything for his family and friends.  I am so glad he was here to attend their 50th Anniversary party so he could see how many people loved and admired him.

I have been very lucky to have never lost anyone (while I was old enough to remember) I've never even been to a funeral so all this is very new to me. I had no idea why I wasn't breaking down last night, why I didn't cry non stop, why I was still able to smile. But the breakdown didn't happen until I saw someone write "25/05/1936 - 10/06/2012" tonight. The dash. MY grandpa's birthday now has a dash.  It's so surreal. 

23 comments:

  1. I am so very sorry for your - and your family's - loss. I remember you posting just a few weeks ago about their anniversary so this is just heartbreaking. Don't worry about this post not being 'happy' - it is real and I would hate to think of you posting happy things and holding this back. We are here to support you, I am thinking of you and your family as you go through this.

    He seems like such a wonderful man. May he rest in peace xx

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  2. Im so sorry to hear about the loss of your grandpa, Just know that its OK to cry, scream, yell and be upset its natural when you lose someone that you love and was always in your life.

    He will be watching over you and be so proud of you
    He has such a beautiful warm face! xxxx

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  3. I'm so sorry Mrs B.

    Thinking of you and your family xxxx

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  4. Mrs B, I'm so sorry to hear about your Grandpa. It feels like yesterday you were posting about the anniversary party. He looked like such a happy, genuine man in his photos.
    You react to grief howevet you want- there is no 'right' way to act in a situation like this.
    Thinking of you x

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  5. I'm so sorry. Thinking of you and your family. He looked like such a lovely gentleman. Cherish your memories-especially from the lovely party you just had.

    Take care of yourself, and just do whatever feels right to you. There is no 'right' way.

    xx

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  6. Your blog is yours to do whatever you want with. Its your space to share how you're feeling so don't worry about always having "happy" posts. I am so sorry for your loss. It was very sudden and I know that will be the most difficult part for you. It is for people like your grandfather that I want to work in neurological rehab. Brain injury is such a horrible thing. My thoughts go to you and your family. Take care of yourself.

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  7. I'm so sorry for your loss. Don't ever think you can't write how you're feeling on your blog, it's your space :)

    Thinking of you and your family x

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  8. My thoughts are with you :( There is nothing worse than losing a loved one. I am so glad he had such a lovely anniversary party (with that AMAZING gift you arranged) before all of this. I hope you feel better soon :)

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  9. I'm soo sorry to read of the loss.. When I was reading tears started to well especially at the mention of your grandma.. Thought are with you and your family! xoxox

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  10. So sorry to hear this, so very sad. Take care, MrsB.

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  11. I'm so sorry, I really don't know the right things to say to you.

    Be kind to yourself, take care, xx

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  12. Again, I am so sorry to hear this news. This post is very beautiful and an honour to someone you obviously loved very much! Death is the worst part of this life that we live and what I will say to you is don't worry about how you handle this, whether you cry too much or not enough... everyone mourns differently, there is no right or wrong way.

    I am glad he got to spend that amazing night with his loved ones and read those beautiful letters. You gave everyone the gift of being able to tell him how much they loved him one last time and you didn't even know it. That is truly beautiful.

    My thoughts are with you and your family xxx

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  13. Sorry to read this :-( Is always difficult with the loss of a relative, especially one taken so suddenly. Wish you and your family the best.

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  14. Oh Lord. This is heartbreaking.

    I'm so sorry for your loss. For your whole family.

    Stay Strong and be kind to yourself.

    xoxoxoxo

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  15. i'm so sorry for your family, its heartbreaking. i hope you're all left with beautiful memories. its not fair. thoughts and hugs for you sweetpea. xx

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  16. my deepest and sincerest apologies to you and your family. I'm a long-time reader but this is my first comment, I couldn't not.

    This story is eerily similar to my boyfriends Pop who passed away in January. He was in such a good place and had also recently celebrated 50 years with his wife. And then all of a sudden his been rushed to hospital and the next morning he was gone, in very similar times of day to your grandpa.

    Take comfort in the memories and legacy that he has left you with, that although its sudden for you, at least he wasn't suffering.

    Sending many virtual hugs now and in the coming months to your and your family.

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  17. My heart goes out to you and your family. ♥

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  18. I've spent the last five minutes trying to write something both appropriate and comforting, but I can't find the words. I don't have any of my grandparents left, but I know the immense emptiness and sadness you will be feeling. One of the hardest things for me was watching my parents (especially Dad) try to cope with the grief of losing their Mum and Dad.

    You just need to stick together at this tough time, but you should feel very proud that you gave your grandparents such a wonderful, meaningful anniversary party. With family that special, they know how much they're loved and supported.

    Deepest condolences to you and your family.

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  19. I am so sorry for your (and your family's) loss- my deepest condolences. I lost my grandfather earlier this year and it was also my first loss for as long as I could remember (or while I was old enough to remember) and it definitely wasn't easy. Stay strong. Remember the good times, cherish the fun times and you will keep the memory of your grandfather alive in your heart and mind. It's hard not to also be concerned with how your grandmother and mother are feeling - I think about it all the time. Take care.

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  20. Hun,

    I just saw this post, I am so sorry. I have been battling too with the grieve of losing my Grandmother in law on the 9th of June. It's painful but an extremely binding time for the family. I think it was great your Grandpa was able to celebrate his Anniversary so recently and that he was so loved and cherished.

    B strong and hold on to those great memories.

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  21. Oh my goodness me .... something must be wrong with my blogger I kept visiting your page and nothing had updated. I just got home and came on and saw this post.

    I am so so sorry for your loss, tears are welling up in my eyes as I type. My grandpa is my best friend. There is no one else in the world that understands me like he does and his hugs are one in a million.

    I cant even think about what you are going through.

    Virtually love hugs and kisses xxxxx

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